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Coming to terms with the “chronic” part of pain

I have lived several years of my life in chronic pain. I have been fortunate to be relieved of that same pain with surgery and therapy.  I am now  having  to accept the fact that the pain, I thought was  banished, can choose to resurface.

Checking the dictionary, I found this definition of chronic: “persisting for a long time or constantly recurring”. Why was I unaware that it  was capable of returning? When it is gone should  it not stay gone? I would never invite it back!

And the returning is not only physically harder to accept but  psychologically tougher as well. I know that if I get a “whiff” of pain, it brings back a lot of bad memories. I had the strength to endure it when that was  the only life I knew. But when you have had a chance to be free of its shackles, you know what its imprisonment demands. And somehow I feel that if I eluded it for years maybe by running and hiding I can avoid it now.  I know I do not want it to return.

I have spent the last week dealing with the fact that it has returned, in my knee this time, not my hip, and that I must take steps to regain my strength to deal with it. I know that I do not want to be its victim again, and I have the wisdom to know that I can engage in some healthier measures to try and minimize it.

Have you had experiences in being pain free and then chronic pain returning? How has that felt? How have you dealt?

About Mary Byrne Eigel

Before writing children’s books, Mary spent many years teaching in classrooms and creating art in her studio. She was born with bi-lateral hip dysplasia, a painful condition that causes normal activities, like walking, to be challenging. As a child, when Mary had to trek long distances, she often wished she had a wheelchair. For her, a wheelchair offered pain-free opportunities, not limitations. Mary grew up in Chicago, which is the lakefront inspiration for the town of Sail. She lives in Missouri with her husband and two dogs, Beaux and Trey.

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